Today the 21st of July, is the day, that my second book is launched and I am full of nerves. I wrote my first book, for me firstly and as I wrote I wasn't even sure that I would publish it when it was finished. In the end, I did publish it and it has sold way beyond my wildest dreams and then some. It has had, such great reviews and I have had such fabulous feedback that I never truly expected.
So when I began writing my second book I felt under pressure, which I had never felt when I wrote 'You are my sunshine.' This time around there is a certain expectation of my book, to stand up to the story of my first one.
This book is very different from my first book because in the first one there is lots of drama with me being in hospital and even more when things didn't go to plan. This one, however, is about; recuperating, about healing, about my battle to get back my life, to fight against my pain and fatigue.
The focus is on appointments, tests and hospitals but it is balanced with treats, theatre and holidays. It is about my day to day struggles to get my life back. It is about me fighting to enjoy life with the limitations that I now had. I was effectively left looking 'normal' to 'good' depending on the day and how much makeup I had on; my symptoms though remained largely invisible. It is tough trying to keep up the charade, that you can still do everything and eventually I had to accept my limitations and begin to live my life within the limitations that I now had.